The beginning

When I was 19 the whole hell broke loose.

That October 1992 I started my college here at Belgrade University. I broke up with my high-school sweetheart and found another boyfriend. Lectures seemed interesting. I had my friends, I had my little Australian parrot who was my greatest love and friend. And the future looked bright.

But something was off.

In the morning I started feeling stomach discomfort, soon after I had horrible diarrheas, and I had to wake up a few hours earlier to regulate my intestines before I run to the bus.

Each morning, I was shaking while the lectures were held, and each afternoon I was horribly tired while our college practice was going on. I started to sleep for 12 hours straight to keep myself going the next day.

But when I think of it now, it didn’t start then.

When I was 16, I fainted one morning in front of the toilet doors. I managed to stand up after a while, went in, and then I don't remember a thing until I sensed my mother trying to raise me while the bathroom mirror was scattered on the floor and all over me.

She took me to bed, she called an ambulance, and they were more interested in the fact could I be pregnant. I wasn't. I was a virgin at that time. All I could say is that I felt sick after I had my breakfast. And my breakfast made my mother combining fruits, and nuts floating in lemon juice. That was some extra-healthy breakfast she read about somewhere, so she made a promise that she will improve our lives.

Two months later, I was in a Children's hospital in New Belgrade since I was a minor. I hated that place. I hated it when I was three and they cut out my tonsils. And I hated them, even more, when I was five when they operated on my appendix.

I didn’t hate the doctors, I hated the whole hospital and all those crazy children there. In those years, mothers weren’t allowed to be in the hospital with their children and that was truly traumatic.

Ok, I am 16 now. The hospital rooms are crowded with children. I have to share the bed with a little girl who is bleeding from her mouth each night while she sleeps. On the other side, there is another girl my age, who tried to kill herself, and there are many more. Drama, trauma, all around.

Nurses are horrible, I think that jail keepers guard convicts in a better way and doctors don't care. For the first time in my life, I went to the gynecologist. And I was afraid.

He told me to undress and lie on that awful thing, and then all of the sudden he pushed his hand into me. I screamed, he yelled, I cried. I felt awful. But then, I had it in writing. I was a virgin.

For two weeks, they did all sorts of tests on me, but in the end, they could only find that I have low levels of cholesterol. Even my blood pressure which was usually very low was very high there. I told the doctor assigned to me that this is happening due to stress, but he didn't believe me.

He wanted me to stay longer so that they can search for… For what?

 

I signed to get out of the hospital. Two weeks later when I returned to pick up some documentation, he checked and my blood pressure was low… As usual.

In the summer of 1990, the civil war began in Yugoslavia. I was with my mother in a mountain hotel at that time. That evening, we watched the news announcing that Slovenia stated they are not part of Yugoslavia anymore. And then it was this whole mess around the army, local police, and everything in between. Little did we know that it would turn out into a huge mess resulting in blood flowing all around.

But there, on that mountain, I felt like something is off. I had some severe sunburns, and I didn’t understand.

I lived on coffee and cigarettes. My mother already knew I started to smoke. Yes, we had the fight, and another one and another one, but I couldn’t hide and lie anymore.

The war in Slovenia started threatening to expand toward the south. And we were at the south. But I was young. I was 16, I just had my first boyfriend, a real jerk, I had a heartbreak, I was "mature" with my coffee and cigarettes and life felt just interesting enough.

Or, it could have started earlier?

 

 

 

 

 

How autoimmune disease starts

I have been asking the same question myself for decades now. At some moments, I was perfectly certain I am right. But from this point in life, I'm not sure about anything at all, and the real question is – is there just one cause, or does it take a few for an autoimmune system to freak out?

In general, the autoimmune disease starts after some virus, particularly when herpes types of viruses, like varicella-zoster for instance, disturb overall health. It can also appear due to the wrong dental or surgical procedures, poisoning, childhood trauma, and ancestral conflict. Anything can trigger an autoimmune reaction.

 

Is this the medical statement?

No, it's not. I am not a doctor. I am an engineer, and as such, I was trained from early on to use logic. Also, I have been focused on systemic lupus for almost 30 years now, just studying that part and avoiding learning how what bones are called in Latin, or what the structure of the eye looks like.

This can be my advantage or disadvantage, but at this point in my life, I don't care anymore. And in some situations, better to say, many situations, I had some disputes with my doctors and proved to them their reasoning is wrong. Of course, from the biological, physical, and chemical stance. And knowing Serbian doctors, that wasn’t hard to achieve at all.

A few decades away, the popular ideas that autoimmune reaction is triggered by smoking or hair dye, were very popular. Ok, those ideas might be true, but it could take just one hair dye to act as a straw that broke the donkey’s back. It must have been many other straws before that one for the pile of burden to become unbearable.

Hair dye or tobacco may belong to poisonous substances, but before those two, we could be, and we are sure, exposed to many other poisons, aka, metals, chemicals, and even things we don't know exist yet.

 

Dental procedures

Dental procedures are one big theme itself when it comes to an autoimmune reaction. And I will write separate texts just about this "big" issue. For now, you should know that dentists are studying a different type of human anatomy and biochemistry than regular doctors. And from this theme, all other problems arise.

For instance, if a person has a horrible case of diabetes, and this person’s doctor just found out that he has gangrenous feet, the decision will be simple. The doctor will cut his feet and also, the part of his lower leg, just in case to be secure that gangrene won’t spread.

However, if you would give that same man to a dentist, he won't cut his leg or just his feet. He would drill through his bones, "clean" the bones, and fill them with some plastic substance. And that it's.

Now, you might get a bit clearer picture of what is happening in your mouth, your jaws specifically, regarding root canals. But that is not the whole story, including even implants of all sorts. That is one long and sad story I will write about.

By the same token, the autoimmune reaction can take place after any surgical procedure. Why is this happening, doctors could write 10o books but nothing will be so certain. Something starts at that point of cutting or traumatizing the body, and then hell opens widely its gates.

 

Childhood trauma and ancestral conflicts

 Uh… This is another big and truly sad theme that surely has a great impact immune system. It is said that the immune system cannot attack itself. The immune system is designed to defend not to destroy the person because that kind of logic doesn’t make sense. We are all designed for flight or fight reactions.

But wait a minute! What about the "freeze" part, not just flight or fight. When animals are captured by the traps they try to chew their paws to set themselves free. What about the situation when a person can't escape and can't fight? Will this person try to destroy herself or himself in this case?

And this is where childhood trauma comes in very handy. And yes, I will write about it.

 

Also, I know so many ancestral stories, curses, and the black magic impact that it will make your hair stand up. In Vedic astrology, there are clear indicators of when the Kundalini energy stream will go nuts and that is the exact moment when autoimmune disease appears.

 

Viruses as the cause of autoimmune diseases

Why not? If you suddenly have anti—DNA antibodies, this means that something sneaked into your DNA. Viruses perfectly fit into this story. Could it be something else? With nano-technology, it could. With a little help from heavy metals, it could, too. But I will go thoroughly through all of them.

Is there a possibility that some medical "protections" we were exposed to in childhood years could trigger an autoimmune response? I won't even mention the name of this one thing that is done to almost all children on several occasions, because we live in a free world and I could get banned just because the notorious word starting with vacc…

Herpes viruses could be the main cause, but what if viruses “unite” with metals or bind with metals in some way? Then we will have some robocops running around our blood streams and causing havoc.

On the other hand, there is an opinion that states that viruses are just upgrades, and there is another opinion that viruses don't exist at all. I will write extensively about that too. But I think that is is just enough for some kind of start.

I have been there and done that for almost 30 years, fighting for my own life. I will write how I experienced and perceived all sorts of procedures, what could be the causes and what solutions I have found until now. And I hope you will find the inspiration to save your life, too.